"There is no use in going back to yesterday, I was a different person then." - Alice in Wonderland

As you can see, my brain comes up with whatever it can to prevent me from doing what I know in my depths that I need, and absolutely choose, to do. By connecting to my Self first thing in the morning, and doing so by choice, has allowed me to finally complete a practice I have been trying to do for years. The difference now is, I know, with every fiber in my body, that the way I live my life is my choice.

I am grateful for her surrender to her dis-ease because it allowed me to see her for who she was— not the mask of the defensive personality that she had been wearing for over 70 years on this planet, but her pure essence. I saw her essential expressions shining through. I saw the pure joy, pure strength, pure compassion, pure vulnerability, pure love she held within her. And I loved her evermore. The way she lived with this dis-ease for 10 years proved to me she was truly, unquestionably brilliant. She loved life, and she manifested the life she subconsciously desired.

Because we try to silence the experience of the body and impose culturally conditioned responses and logic to it, we don't heal. We make incremental changes to our perception, and we sustain our self-deprecating, false, limiting beliefs. After all, they kept us safe until now. And they don't work.

This Winter Solstice has, to my surprise, profoundly influenced my life. I only know this because I paid attention to my body, my intuition, and the wisdom gathered throughout the centuries that is now disposable at my fingertips.

Through the evolution of my skin care routines over the last 6 years, I have learned so much not only about my skin, but also about the health and self-esteem consequences of choosing products that align with my values and sustain my being.

What would happen if, instead of teaching our children to trade in their innate curiosity for a life of attachments that promises to keep them safe, we taught them to look within for the answers? What if we taught them that they are valued, loved, cared for, regardless of their external accomplishments? What if we taught them to question everything, including us? What if, instead of pressuring them to become someone we accepted them exactly as they are? What if we allowed them space to chant, to express themselves creatively, to play without restrictions, to care less about their appearance, to love themselves unconditionally, to love animals and Gaia, to befriend everyone, to trust their instincts, to always speak their truth, to connect to their ancestors, to meditate, to just be themselves?What a wonderful world we would create.

I continue to choose this particular lifestyle because it provides me with a sense of peace like no other place I've ever lived in before. I believe I finally found home. And in finding home, I found serenity.

I am worthy because I am here. I am a life-force that carries within me the universe, the wisdom of all of life. I am the light of God.

This is my small act of rebellion. The world will not change, and in any case, this is not my intent. My intent is to live in harmony with authenticity, from my Truth, from my Soul, simply for it's own sake.