Don’t rock the boat, said all good girls everywhere.

At that moment, I found myself feeling totally disoriented and confused, as if the time / space continuum had shifted and, somehow, did not apply to me. 

As I type this, I find myself realizing that …this is how it feels when one awakens to an alternative reality they were not prepared for, yet there it is. 

This is how it feels when we are so certain that we know what we know and then are exposed to a different reality that shows us otherwise.

This is how it feels when we live cloaked inside our worldview, resisting “the unknown” to penetrate because we would rather feel like we already know.

I think this is the state we are desperately seeking to avoid ever feeling. Because it’s disorienting. Because it’s confusing. Because it’s uncertain. 

And our cultural conditioning has taught us that uncertainty = dangerous. This makes sense when we are four and left to fend for ourselves, however, it becomes an anchor of a double-bind that keeps us unable to differentiate.

Fear is infamous for masking the truth, because we are too afraid of the fear to face what is. We don't want to know ... yet, simultaneously, we can never not-know. Such is the nature of the double-binds that keep us captive...

Fear is infamous for masking the truth, because we are too afraid of the fear to face what is. We don't want to know ... yet, simultaneously, we can never not-know. Such is the nature of the double-binds that keep us captive...

feel powerful in doing something… even if it is just depleting their own Life Force.For others, fear activates the flight response and they feel compelled to run away. To just keep running. The problem is … the fear comes with them. For others still, fear paralyzes them on the spot. They can’t move. They can’t function. They can’t breathe. They hold their breath and hope for the best. 

So if you’re awake to what’s happening and you seek to create a meaningful life anyway, you are in the right place. If, however, you’d rather put your head in the sand about what’s happening and go on about your day, consider this is your out.

As I tread along creating meaningfully in my life, I notice so-much-bulshit going around. Part of me is filled with a strange yearning for the good ol’ days, and the other part of me knows that there was never really such a thing. At least not in my lifetime, nor any of the times I romanticize as better than. Perhaps, though, there were some parts that were better then (whenever that is) and there are parts that are better now. Given the choice, I categorically choose now.

This blog isn’t about AI taking over the world. This blog is about living authentically, and what it takes to actually do that in a world that demands you use AI for everything (in the process, normalizing AI as superior). Here’s my stance on it: I am unwilling to become one with the cloud.

I know through my own experience how fast my life has changed out there when I can take a deep dive in here in a space that exceeds the current cultural conditioning. This space has become sacred to me. I have not yet found them anywhere else.

How to integrate the layers upon layers of cultural conditioning that is intended to keep you small and externally referenced.