Every day I get to wake up and decide: How do I choose to live my life today? 

I take everything that comes to my awareness as an opportunity for growth. Call it disease, call it discomfort, call it life, call it death, call it Covid-19. It really doesn’t matter. It’s all a messenger of how I’m choosing to live my life. And, it’s all an opportunity, in this breath, to make a different choice. An opportunity to make an expansive, meaningful choice that aligns with who and what I know mySelf to be.

What matters to me now, increasingly more than ever, is my fully connected Presence. To know, in the moment, to say yes or to say no. To know, in the moment, to stay or to leave. To know, in the moment, exactly where Stela is. Without attachment to story, without attachment to past, without attachment to future, without attachment to outcome. Just me, bare, raw, Present. Here. Now. 

This is the context that has allowed me to wholeheartedly and unquestionably trust living from an internally referenced point. There is nothing 'out there' that can overcome the truth of my own experience delivered to me through the impulses that move through my body. 

In being responsible toward my Self (my calling, my being) I am carefree. Because the responsibility I integrate into my life is that of my choosing...and I'd have it no other way. What I'm talking about here is an internally referenced source of responsibility. 

There are these moments in life where I know that it is all magic. The synchronicity of it all, the beauty deeply felt from beyond the very cells of my existence, the generosity of Spirit. I am surrounded by Love. I experience the fullness of Life. I consider myself so incredibly fortunate, because I let myself tap into that space of wholeness, oneness, majesty and I know "Life is magic".

What would happen if we became willing to let go of external notions of what reality is for just one moment and ask ourselves some bigger questions about who and what we are?

Today, in this moment, I know. I AM the Flow of Life, and it is me.

To be where I am, I've gifted myself with the permission to allow myself to see through different perceptual filters. The patriarchal narrative never worked for me; and yet I bought into it and felt stuck in my inability to "figure it out". Something was wrong with me. So I tried to escape "me". Now I know so much better! The process of continuing to clear the muck is essential, because tapping into the messages of the Signal from Self through the body has been critical to my healing, finding balance, self-evolution.

When I made the decision that I simply must cut my son's hair right freaking NOW, I also recognized within myself "this is my pattern". I knew where this was headed, been there many times before.